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New Dexter music video: I Am The Drug (VVC Premieres)
I Am The Drug

Title: I Am The Drug (download here)
Fandom: Dexter; spoilers for all of S2
Music: I Am The Drug by Ed Harcourt
Stats: DivX (45.8MB) and WMV (24.8MB), 3:04
Yes, he has an addiction.

My Premieres show vid for Vividcon 2008 -- SO HAPPY that my Dexter S2 project can finally be set freeeeeeee! Fly Dexter vid, fly away! Thanks much to the adorable obsessive24 for the beta.

Oh, of course he has an addiction, just not the one poor Rita corners him into admitting. And the Dark Passenger? The DP thinks 12-step programs are HI-larious.

Once I was a shadow of a man
Most dark nights my head was in its hands
I begged God to cure my aching limbs
But he did nothing, he gave me no advice
Didn't this God abandon Jesus Christ?
Oh, if it comes to you, I'll die for your sins

I am the drug that you've been waiting for
An urgent craving you cannot ignore
I am the fix that you come back for more
I am the drug

Bring out the dead, I'll show them how to live
Free their souls and watch them slowly drift
Like feathers of a wounded bird
I was wrapped up in a wooden box
Ball and chain, head out on the block
Oh, I wonder if you could say the final word?

I am the drug that you've been waiting for
An urgent craving you cannot ignore
I am the fix that you come back for more
I am the drug

This is not a flash, a figment of your imagination
I am much more than a first degree of separation
Without me all the lines of reality will blur
The walls will breathe, close in like some forgotten curse

I am the drug that you've been waiting for
An urgent craving you cannot ignore
I am the fix that you come back for more
I am the drug

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kuwdora From: kuwdora Date: August 17th, 2008 06:47 am (UTC) (Link)
<3 you.

chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 22nd, 2008 05:42 pm (UTC) (Link)
Right back 'atcha :-) I'm missing VVC *so* hard!
missyvortexdv From: missyvortexdv Date: August 17th, 2008 10:32 am (UTC) (Link)

Gods I've been missing this fandom and your vids are the best. :D
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 22nd, 2008 05:43 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh, thank you, that's so kind of you! I finished this ages ago and was really dying to release it...must keep raising the profile of this show!
fahrbotdrusilla From: fahrbotdrusilla Date: August 17th, 2008 12:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yay, vid! Loved it.
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 22nd, 2008 05:44 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks, I'm happy that you enjoyed it!
From: cibby Date: August 17th, 2008 01:05 pm (UTC) (Link)


Amazing! Just awesome and amazing and such a perfect song. I've had to watch several times and I know I'll add this one to my regular "vids" rotation! Awesome awesome awesome. You rock.
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 22nd, 2008 05:45 pm (UTC) (Link)


Yay, it makes me so happy to know that you loved it!
rae1013 From: rae1013 Date: August 17th, 2008 03:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
Love! Love! Love!

Perfect analogy. Solid editing and storytelling. Plus that song is fabulous. I *heart* this vid. Will be rec'ing it like mad. =)
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 22nd, 2008 05:45 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh, wow -- I'm honored that it's rec-worthy! Thanks very much for the feedback!
subtle__sarcasm From: subtle__sarcasm Date: August 17th, 2008 03:45 pm (UTC) (Link)
So so amazing. And it reminds me that I desperately need to re-watch S2.
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 22nd, 2008 05:46 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank you bunches! I need the new season already, I'm telling you.
sekkie From: sekkie Date: August 17th, 2008 05:09 pm (UTC) (Link)
I love this. Love, love, love it. It's such a prefect meddling of narrative and visuals, and what poor Dexter is all about!
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 22nd, 2008 05:47 pm (UTC) (Link)
It makes me so happy to know that you loved it!
kiki_miserychic From: kiki_miserychic Date: August 18th, 2008 04:23 am (UTC) (Link)

Free their souls and watch them slowly drift

Oh yeah, Dexter is most certainly an addict in all his fucked up glory. Your editing with the drums and the vocals is killer (no puns here, no sir). The colors are all over the place, yet tight and perfect. It's all on the right side of weird. The flare of the sun is very cool, as are the time toggles, long holds, and morphy transitions. So much of it is in his eyes, which you make use of wonderfully. There's interesting play in the movement that makes things so lively.
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 22nd, 2008 09:54 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: Free their souls and watch them slowly drift

I really appreciate all of the details you noted! The drum editing was particularly fun, I have to say...the song has a very staccato and in-your-face feel and I wanted the editing to reflect it. Thank you so much!
milly From: milly Date: August 18th, 2008 05:42 am (UTC) (Link)
I loved this vid so much. I don't watch the show, but it's definitely more than enough to make me go 'Damn, why the hell am I *not* watching this show?'. I need to rewatch it again (and again and again), but I adored the pacing of this and the editing. Loved the intro too, really set up the vid (I feel like I would have gotten it anyway, but it really set everything together).
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 22nd, 2008 09:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh, thank you kindly! If it makes you curious about Dexter at all, then WHEE, I'm thrilled!
sugarsyringe From: sugarsyringe Date: August 18th, 2008 09:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
This is amazing!
Really, thank you so much for sharing! :)
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 22nd, 2008 09:55 pm (UTC) (Link)
No, thank you! I'm so happy you liked it and really appreciate that you took the time to tell me so :-)
mranderson71 From: mranderson71 Date: August 19th, 2008 09:56 am (UTC) (Link)
This would have to be my favourite ever Dexter vid thus far, although I hadn’t heard the song before. It suits Dexter & his second season shenanigans perfectly! And using the scene at the beginning to segue into the song was also perfect.

Your jump cuts, time toggles & zooms - together with the way it was paced were completely composed of awsm & just kept me rivited the whole way through. It’s definitely lit a fire under my ass to get started on the one Ive been meaning to do.

chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 22nd, 2008 09:57 pm (UTC) (Link)
(your icon! *points* so perfect!)

Wow, thank you for the high praise! And if it in any way helps to spawn a new Dexter vid from you, then hoo-freakin-ray...the world needs more Dexter vids!!
jhava From: jhava Date: August 19th, 2008 07:23 pm (UTC) (Link)
This is a beautiful character study of Dexter. I'm in awe of the song choice and the editing. Talk about exquisitely done. Thank you for creating this vid.
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 22nd, 2008 09:59 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank you so much for your kind comment! The song was one I knew long before Dexter S2 and it was a real head-slap moment when I finally put them together...I'm just glad I did in time to make this for Vividcon.
bop_radar From: bop_radar Date: August 20th, 2008 10:14 am (UTC) (Link)
Ohhhh, new Dexter vid! I pounced on this as soon as I saw it. It was so exciting to see such a sophisticated exploration of Season 2 Dexter. And wow, I'm just totally blown away by your technical control and particularly your use of (and creation of) movement in this vid. It feels so tightly controlled--just like Dexter's approach to his addiction. He tries to keep it all neat and clean and tied down but it surges out of him--I love that ambiguity and this vid captures it perfectly.
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 23rd, 2008 07:28 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm so happy you liked it and truly appreciate your comments about it! I worried, actually, about the sophistication of the vid, feared that maybe it was too simple. And thanks for your remarks about the movement! The song has such a careening, almost carnival-like feel and I wanted to make the source have those surges...thrilled that you responded to that :-)
talitha78 From: talitha78 Date: August 21st, 2008 01:30 am (UTC) (Link)
Honestly, Dexter (the show) creeps me the hell out, and while this vid was playing during Premieres, I had to close my eyes during the bloody bits. But on second viewing in the hotel room on a small computer screen, I found the vid much more accessible. There's no denying that the editing is masterful; there's a wonderful sense of movement throughout, and I LOVE the voiceover section at the beginning. The other standout moments were the blood spatters against the white wall that make it look like he is painting with blood. Fantastic!
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 23rd, 2008 07:32 pm (UTC) (Link)
Aw, you braved it again even though the show creeps you? That's too kind! Thank you -- I appreciate your feedback all the more. I seriously don't know why Dexter doesn't freak *me* out...as a rule I never watch horror/gore, so I truly don't know why the show doesn't hit those buttons for me.
aurora_84 From: aurora_84 Date: August 21st, 2008 11:18 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh man, this was incredibly cool!!
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 23rd, 2008 07:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yay, I'm glad you thought so! Thank you!
evalinece From: evalinece Date: August 23rd, 2008 02:23 pm (UTC) (Link)
Amazing vid, saving so i can watch over and over!
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 23rd, 2008 07:34 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank you for letting me know you enjoyed it!
counteragent From: counteragent Date: August 27th, 2008 12:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
How have I not commented before this?

And how did I not know you before VVC? You are a fabulous vidder and extremely nice, to boot!

This vid scares the crap out of me, and yet it still also kind of amuses me and certainly compells me to keep up, keep watching. It's like a little mini addiction all its own.

Amazing timing and use of repeated visuals (bloody stuff, mostly) to make a precise narrative come through.

Edited at 2008-08-27 12:08 pm (UTC)
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: August 28th, 2008 02:37 am (UTC) (Link)
And how did I not know you before VVC? You are a fabulous vidder and extremely nice, to boot!

Awww, the same right back to you! I hope we get the chance to chat more next time around...VVC just went WAY too quickly.

Thank you kindly for the nice words about the vid! I was so glad that a level of amusement came through. For a show about a serial killer, Dexter manages to be quite funny!
buffyann From: buffyann Date: September 6th, 2008 09:42 pm (UTC) (Link)
Okay, I just finished season 2 of Dexter like 4 minutes ago (OMG! Dexter, I love you, I wanna vid you right NOW !), and I had to rewatch this. :)

and wow, I remember thinking it was good from premieres but without knowing at all what this was about, it was harder to follow past the shiny. Your editing is splashy, and not just because of the blood splashing everywhere (which, btw, awesome ! (in the vid that is, cause otherwise, blood = aaaaah))

The vid is creepy and funny in a creepy way. I loved your use of jump cuts and time toggle. really woo !
and thanks so much for making watch the show, it is more than amazing, it's definitely entered my top 5 at the moment. and just in time for season 3 :D \o/
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: September 7th, 2008 10:58 pm (UTC) (Link)
I have a *huge* grin on my face in response to your newfound Dexter love!!! HOORAY! I'm so glad this vid gave you a nudge in that direction and I can't wait to see your own Dexter vids in the future :-)
beth_green From: beth_green Date: September 21st, 2008 07:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
Dexter is such a creepily enjoyable show. The first time I saw the show, I didn't want to like it. However, the character and the actor who portrays him were both so fascinating that I could not look away.

The same can be said of this vid. I wouldn't have thought that Dexter was a show that would really work with a song vid. Evidently, I thought wrong; so much so, that I had to go back and watch this vid a second time after the first viewing. It was even better the second time around, so I figured that I owed you a warm fuzzy.

This vid was so perfectly done that everyone else can just put away their editing toys and go home. Seriously. You chose the perfect song, one that I hadn't heard before but that sums up the character and therefore, the show. Your scene selection and deft cutting created the mood needed for such a complex subject, creating a disturbingly likable vid (exactly like Dexter).

Thanks for sharing.
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: September 22nd, 2008 12:00 am (UTC) (Link)
What amazing comments -- gosh, I'm honored! Thanks so very much.

I wouldn't have thought that Dexter was a show that would really work with a song vid.

I am still surprised at how much I feel "at home" with this footage, as I have since I did my first Dexter vid after only four episodes had aired. It's really not the kind of show I thought I'd like, let alone feel compelled to vid repeatedly!

Thanks again! It makes so happy to know that you enjoyed the vid...you most definitely gave me a warm fuzzy!
tearful_eye From: tearful_eye Date: September 23rd, 2008 07:02 pm (UTC) (Link)

this is absolutely amazing, i'm completely in love with your editing... i adore this vid to pieces & i don't even like tihs show, *sigh* you make all the murdering & everything look so beautiful. & of course, ed harcourt, ♥
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: September 24th, 2008 01:16 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you -- I'm so thrilled that you got such enjoyment out of the vid and the editing even without liking the show! Dexter is shot beautifully and I think that goes a long way towards making all the death look...um, shiny, heh :)
sol_se From: sol_se Date: September 27th, 2008 06:16 pm (UTC) (Link)
I love this video so much!
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: September 27th, 2008 07:26 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yay -- and thanks so much for letting me know that you enjoyed it!
balistik94 From: balistik94 Date: September 27th, 2008 10:46 pm (UTC) (Link)
This is my favorite show and you did it justice. I really enjoyed this vid. I especially like the quick cuts, lyrics matching an overall pace. Well done.
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: September 28th, 2008 03:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks very much! I'm glad you felt it did the show justice.
bananainpyjamas From: bananainpyjamas Date: October 12th, 2008 06:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
I have to be honest and say that I'm not big on Dexter vids because I'm easily squicked by gore, but I can get over that when they're this good. This is so deliciously twisted. There's a clash between the tone of the music and the violent imagery on screen that does so much to accentuate that.

And hee, I loved the dialogue at the beginning. The discussion about that during Vid Review was interesting. I'm not anti-dialogue in the slightest and I think this vid serves as a great example of how it can really strengthen a vid. You didn't need it to get your message across, but it was a cool way to start the vid off with a little smirk.

Your editing is great, as always. I love the transition with the blood spatter at 1:10, and the ensuing shakiness at 1:15 looks awesome and is very musical. The jump cuts were a great way of acknowledging a pretty strong beat without being chained by it.

So yeah, suffice to say I liked it. :) I'm quite chagrined that I didn't really know you before VVC but I'm glad that's changed now.
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: October 16th, 2008 03:47 am (UTC) (Link)
I totally get the gore squick -- I know it seems contrary to vidding Dexter, but I'm completely grossed out by anything verging on horror/blood/guts. Dexter bypasses that issue for me and I have no idea why.

I'm so glad you enjoyed this anyway and really appreciate the kind words about the editing. I agree that the discussion about dialogue use was interesting. I'm not violently for/against much on principle when it comes to vidding...if I find that something feels like it works in the moment, then *shrug*, hey, why not? To some degree, I kept in mind reports from last year's VVC when there were some folks who were upset over a Dexter vid that they didn't feel warned them appropriately for what was coming. My intro was akin to shouting, HI, THIS IS DEXTER AND HE KILLS PEOPLE, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED KTHXBYE :)

I am *so* glad to have met you and hope we get more time to hang out next time. Maybe split a deep dish meat pizza or something (ugh, with 50 other people, because it would apparently take that many to consume one of those) ;)
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chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: May 6th, 2009 05:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hooray for new Dexter fans! And whee for lovely vid comments, which are so deeply appreciated :-) I'm really pleased to know that you enjoyed it. I am *almost* disturbed by how much fun I've derived from vidding (and watching, of course!) Dexter.
turquoisetumult From: turquoisetumult Date: September 1st, 2009 10:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
A)This song is fantastic and incredibly apt for Dexter's character study (especially season 2).

B) Your editing = Friggin' brilliant! The pace of the clips kept up with the song so well! And I must say that lyrical interpretation in the first verse with Harry and Brian was absolutely stunning! (And thank you for pointing out the fact that Harry left poor Brian behind as a child!)

Wonderful vid!
chasarumba From: chasarumba Date: September 2nd, 2009 03:43 pm (UTC) (Link)
Your thoughtfulness re commenting really warms me -- thank you again, it's truly appreciated!

I'm glad you liked the song choice! It's almost blatantly obvious, which is why I'm surprised that I almost missed the song/source connection...I think it's because I had the song a long time before Dexter S2 and just didn't think of it for a while.

I had a lot of fun with the pacing of the editing and with the little twisted lyrics matches, like the God/Jesus/Harry/Brian stuff :) It's so true -- Harry left the "too damaged" one behind! That scene broke my heart and it was great to have an opportunity to show Harry as the flawed God in Dexter's world.
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